Only You

You,
you have left me with nothing but sorrow,
empty, cold and alone,
wondering if you would return to me,
you left me, you choose to leave me,
but I, weak as I am,
waited for your love.


I never knew how you could bring me joy,
even with your frosted heart,
and your scarcastic remarks,
I still wanted you, I still long for you,
you were the one that I wanted,
you were the one that I long for,


yes you, only you.


but sad, so, so, sad.
you didnt want me,
I gave you my all,
my heart and my soul,
my flower belonged to you,

yes, only you!


"Every true genius is bound to be naive."
Friedrich Schiller

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Today's lesson:-

1. When the restaurant says they're closing.They really mean it!!!--no compromising!
2. When you take pictures, make sure security guards aren't around.
3. When you download a file, make sure there is NO virus!!

lastly...

WHEN YOUR HAVING A HOLIDAY, MAKE SURE THE HOLIDAY IS REALLY A HOLIDAY...AND PLAN AHEAD...cause I'm having a shitty "holiday"...

nyeh.

That's all folks...

Life-line under attack!!!

"Unable to connect start-up. Contact your retailer".

HELP!!!I THINK MY PHONE IS INFECTED BY THE VIRUS!!!

I TRIED TO TURN IT OF, TAKE OUT THE BATTERY, TAKE OUT THE MEMORY CARD, LET IT TO REST FOR 10 MIN, WIPE SOME DUST OUT FROM THE MEMORY SLOT AND REASSEMBLE THEM ALL AGAIN....STILL CANNOT CONNECT!!!!

ARRGH...

"HABISLAH PLAY LIST AKU, MY SONGS, MY PICTURES, MY CONTACT NUMB, MY GAMES, MY THEME.......OH NO MY BRAND NEW DOWNLOADED THEMES!!!"--*sigh*

Its 10.29 am and I'm PISSED OFF!!---stupid virus thingy, eating up my phone, breaking it!!!I need my phone, I never thought it would be that important to me...until this kindda stuff happens...Im attached to it!!grrr...STUPID VIRUS!!!--THATS GONNA COST ME A FORTUNE TO GET FIXED!!!AND MY BACKUP PHONE IS AT SELAYANG & IM IN PUTRAJAYA!!!arrrghhhh...I hate this!!

So ppl...If you need me...just leave a message on my YM or MSN or FRIENDSTER or MYSPACE or MY TAG BOX!!

THATS ALL FOR NOW... :(

"Every true genius is bound to be naive."
Friedrich Schiller

Slow--very,very SLOW!

Such a slow day...
Im in Putrajaya right now and will be for this week, Im planning to go to Ipoh though but I have to recomfirm that later...Im feeling so bored!!Exams are over and the 1 week "Holiday" that I was looking forward to having is turning out to be blah--Ive been on the net since I dunno when and I think I need glasses!!Been you tub-ing and theme scearching for my mobile and Im getting hyper...I love the people who invented these things cause seriously Im lovin it!!

Updates...
Nothing much happenning in my life, except for the fact that my sister's getting married and we're all kinnda busy with the preparations and stuff. Been surveying cheap candy stores that sells those XXL lollypops...haven't found the right store yet, still scearching for it!!Do you ever get the feeling that when your not looking for something you always come across it, but when you really need it you can never find it and its either out of stock or out of season.I just hate it when that happens...Having said that,If you people know where those XXL lollypops are sold please,please inform me ASAP...thanks!!

I better get to my you tube now...Im downloading Sindarela episode 22...Ddnt get to see it last week..to busy with stuff!!

Anywho,
Cau Cendol!!

"Every true genius is bound to be naive."
Friedrich Schiller

~Farewell~

A shout out to my cuz Afiq aka Apek,

(From the left: CikNah,Una,Umi,Apek,Along,Me,Poje n Hafiz)

Have fun in Aussie and I wish you the best of luck!! We will surely miss you man and don't forget to bring me back some cute mat salleh aights...:p

I love you Apek n I'm gonna miss having you around!!

Cau cau...

Lastly,
Aussie, Aussie,Aussie!! Oii..Oii..Oii..
hehe..I just had to do that!!

"Every true genius is bound to be naive."
Friedrich Schiller

Look at all them fishy!!

Guess what I did today?!!

I went for a "Fish Foot Spa"..the ones where you get to put your feet in the pool thingy and little cute fishes come and eat your "dead skin"...the lady told me that it was suppose to be good for you and what not--So, since it was cheap (rm 5 for 10 min) and its suppose to be "good" for you, I figured what the hey!!

I needed the spa anyways, I needed something to clam me, something for the stress I felt just now... I had to write a 3 hour paper and I'm exhausted!!sheesh man 3 hours of writing really make my hand cramped!!seriously no joke...I though my hands were gonna give up on me, put I hung in there and finished what I had to do.

How did it felt? Well, it was ticklish at first but after a while I got the hang of it and manage to relax...The experience was interesting and I kinda enjoyed it (but I wished I can dip my hands in there instead)...it can be alot more relaxing if it was not situated in the middle of the shopping complex!!--owh well..

After 10 minutes of the foot spa...I felt great and my feet looks so fresh!!I'm not kidding...it really does...I recommend it to people who likes to wear flip-flop to try this cause your feet will look good afterwards...hehe..trust me on this!!--but make sure to go to the toilet first if you have a weak bladder cause the water is cold and you may feel like going to the loo...just a suggestion!!

I took the liberty to take some pictures to show you guys how its done!!hehe..

Till then,

Enjoy!!

This is interesting!!

Shortest relationship?
Shortest relationship???hmmm...3 months...

Last gift you received?
urmmm...MNG t-shirt from my sis..

Ever dropped a cell phone?
Hell ya--have u seen my phone??

Last food you ate?
Kenduri food..

Last club you visited?
Oh dear me--its been a while..Modesto..

Last smoke?
Nope..not for me..

One favorite song?
Stuck by Stacie Orrico (i think dats how you spell her name)

Where do you live?
Y'd u wanna kno??--Selangor Darul Ehsan.

Last wedding you attended?
My Cuzzin's weddin yesterday at Banting...fuyoooo--long drive ok..

Where is your favorite place?
My room--I like my privacy

Can you cook?
Actaully yea...but dun tell nyone!!

Last time you cried?
Saya bukan RATU AIRMATA..nope...

Why were u crying?
.......i just told you!!!

What do you hate most about yourself?
that im gaining sooo much weight and im scaring myself!!

Can you sing?
me sing??!!--urm..yea..i can carry a tune!!--not

Do you smoke?
whats with the question??didn't you ask me that already??!!sheesh--NO I DON'T.

Pancakes or French toast?
PANCAKES most definately!!

Do you like coffee?
uhuh--i love it, i love it, i love it, i do!!

Last person who sends you a message?
well i send an mms to myself because i wanted to active my 3G..hehe..

Can you play pool?
nope--my ex has taught me and he gave up...grrr..

Can you swim?
swim meh??--can,can..but not as good!!I'll probably drown if you put me in the ocean..

Favorite flavor of ice cream?
chocolate chip mint

What time did you wake up this morning?
morning??more life afternoon...heheh..

What are you doing this weekend?
Most probably doing something with my family...preparing for my sister's wedding perhaps.

Are you smiling?
NOO--its to early to smile...besides,im alone!!

Do you miss someone right now?
I always miss someone...

Do you have a crush?
Ofcourse I do..Im just human!!

Who is your closest cousin’s name?
Hafiz ngok-ngek!!

What were you doing 10 minutes ago?
I think I checkd my Friendster.

If you could go anywhere right now, where?
Back to my school years....I miss being popular!!--wahahaha...

Food you're craving for right this minute?
Raviolli at Fratini's--damn good!!

Name a person who's name starts with the letter "j"?
Jack

Where do you usually hang out?
At home, I'm really not that type of gal...easy n steady..that's the way I like it.

If you were to change careers, what would you want it to be?
I want to be a DIPLOMAT!!!--I can get immunity!!wehoo~

Now I want to tag Shan, Azzef, Zaza, Poje and whoever that wants to try this!!hehe..:p

End of semester--finally!!

Its the end of semester and feewh--its finally over!! Well not really over, still waiting for the exams this Wednesday...n I'm psych!!I'm ready for the exam...bring it on!! Ive been studying my butt of this pass week and if it isn't to much to ask, I am hoping for a distinction...*still keeping my fingers cross*

This semester has brought me new definition of a short semester!! Seriously, if you were to ask me about having a short semester...Id just say...short semester should be abolish!! I personally don't see the significance of "short semester". Let me put it like this, you basically have to cover everything about that particular subject in 2 months time? and add on the assignments, the lectures, the occasionally "spacing out", how much time do you actually get to "master" the subject? 1 month (more or less). See, I really don't see the point of it.

I cant help but think that sometimes short semester is just something to torment and torture us. I mean, you gotta do this, and you have to remember that, and sometimes I feel like Ive been running around like a chicken's head been cut off you know...And that is not a pretty side of me..urgh...

(breathe in, breathe out)

OK, look on the bright side...
This blog is definitely here to stay, Ive made up my mind about it and since I have so much to say...I just say it (indirectly) to this blog. That's the beauty of this course, you get to write anything and there is no right and wrong answer. That's my cup of tea. I seriously enjoyed this course because I found out something about myself. I learned that I could write poetry, yups poem!! I never thought I had it in me. Even though my poem are not up to the standard yet, but I'll definitely write more just for the fun of it. Who knew,writing poem was fun (I surely don't) hehe..

Its a shame though, having to leave this subject in 2 months time, I wish Id have a little more time so that I can really find myself and style. I hope I do, I hope I will...Still hoping for the best.

Exams...here I come!!!

Every true genius is bound to be naive."
Friedrich Schiller

Writing Fiction

An Unforgettable moment in my life

It was not too long ago that this particular moment in my life occurs (exactly 5 months 26 days and 5 hours ago). It was like something in a storybook, something "fairytale" like, something that happens only in dreams and not in real-life. It was an unforgettable moment in fact. It was just a normal day, but that normal day was not an ordinary day for me as I remember it as clearly as it was like yesterday.

He was Johnny, my ex-office mate. We don’t always see eye to eye as our work usually requires us to sit down and brain storm together. We always end up in arguments but being the gentleman he is, he always manages to give in to me. I am, being in a Public Relation and Communication person and he as Operation Manager, it requires us to come out with brilliant idea on how to do promotions and make sure we live up to the company’s expectation and image. After few years working together, we finally worked out our differences and we became closer (just as a friend) as both of us have other people in our lives and there are obviously no feelings towards one another.

At that time, both Johnny and I have our own partners. Maria was Johnny long time girlfriend and also happens to be my good friend. Yes, beautiful Maria, long silky black hair, fair skin, gorgeous smile and she has this bubbly personality that makes it impossible to hate her. And I of course have my own little ‘boy toy’. His name was Alex; he has straight black hair parted at the sides, nice built shoulder, he’s six foot tall and has nice pearly white teeth. Alex and I were together for more than 5 years. Our relationship was a disaster waiting to happen. We have no communication what-so-ever, how we manage to stay in this mentally abusive relationship for 5 years, beats me. I think it’s because Alex tends to be needy at times and constantly wanting me to ‘baby’ him is why our relationship failed. I could not take it anymore.

After few years working with the company, I have decided to move on with my career path. I need to go away, I need changes in life, I need to meet new people, and change my work environment, at least I need time to ponder on my life and where I’m heading. I have accepted a job in a different state. The pay was way better than the job that I had then and they offer more benefits. Johnny was the first person I told, he was happy for me and wishes me well in my life, he tells me that if I need anything I’d to call him without hesitation and that made me felt better. We bid farewell.


One day I thought of calling Maria as I was planning to come back for a visit. I tried to call her number, but it was not in service. So I scroll down my phone book and landed on Johnny’s name, I immediately dialed it and was relieved to hear there was a dial tone. Luckily he hasn’t changed his number I thought to myself. I hear a familiar husky voice on the other line and I know it was Johnny. We had a long conversation until I forgot the real reason why I called him, to ask for Maria’s number. He gave me her number and we ended the conversation there.

When I finally came to visit, I tried calling Maria again, still no answer. Then I tried calling Johnny hoping that Maria was with him. He paused for a while and he told me that they broke up a year ago (almost the same time Alex and I broke up) so I invited him out for dinner (just as a friend).

He accepted, and we had our first unofficial date in Hartamas Square. We talked for hours. Catching up on each other life, update on friends at work, we talked about random things and I was so surprised that we share the same interest and we were on the same page about relationship and marriage. It was getting really late until be didn’t realize that the restaurant was closing, he sent me home and we start to call each other every day without failed. One thing let to another, and I can feel his sincerity towards me and I had never felt that before in any of my relationships. We gave it a shot at having an official relationship.

We’ve been together almost two years now and Johnny proposed to me on my 27th birthday at our “fist unofficial place with exact spot and ambiance” he made the place and setting look exactly the same like when we were there the first time. It was so romantic and majestic that the only thing that I can do was cry. He’s not my perfect image of a boyfriend, and he is definitely not prince charming, but he has humor and his sincerity caught my eyes.

Half a year later, I am Mrs. Johnny. Our relationship was something that we never expected to happen. He’s my knight in shining amour, my Romeo, my soul mate, my everything. And the moment he puts the ring on my finger was the moment that I will never forget. Never…have I LOVED YOU JOHNNY!!

"Every true genius is bound to be naive."
Friedrich Schiller